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Well it's been awhile again, no apologies of course, I have been very busy!

My sweet first born turned 2!!  We had an amazing dinosaur party with all his friends and most of his family, Grandma and Grandpa He were unfortunately sick :(

My aunt and mom were amazing caterers, Double Baba Catering we called them.  Eli and Ozzy both grew quite fond of their Baba Sue as we call her while she was visiting!

And on Thursday little Ozbert turned 3 months!  For 11 days though I had a 2 year old and a 2 month old, hehe.


Updates:

I finally got an interview!  It was an amazing job and I got offered it which was incredibly tempting but I had to decline it because it was full time, no budging.  It would have been awesome though.  I have thrown my resume at two more jobs this week, we'll see what happens.  I really don't want to work at all though.  It would be nice to have a little extra cash though.

I am learning to drive and doing well according to my patient, wonderful hubby!  I'm hoping to be a full fledged 'N' driver by summer.  It will be awesome to be able to drive by myself if I want to go to my mom's or drive the boys to the park, or go to kelowna with my bestie :)

Hubby has been working his new job in Kelowna which has him gone early, early but back at a decent time at least.  Still 12 hour days aren't easy on him.  At least he has his bestie to chat with on the way to and from.

My running took a tumble since Justin is back at work.  I've missed one session but I am just having so much trouble finding time to do my runs.  I'm teaching yoga 3 times a week for the next 3 weeks so it's so hard to get people to constantly watch the boys for me for that AND 3 runs a week.  But I did run 5.5 km today on the half way point of my program.  I feel like I can really do it!  Big confidence booster and enough to keep me trying and pleading for people to watch my boys in order for the big dream!


And I've finally turned a corner with the boys where I'm finding it actually easier to be by myself all day with them and not go crazy!  Ozzy is in the exersaucer now which is super fun to watch, he has conversations with all his toys, what a talker!!  Eli is still abusing his brother but we're working on it.  After asking advice and reading lots I think it's just that he doesn't know how to interact with him but he wants to so badly!  So I know there will still be hard days but I'm finally feeling comfortable.  Only took 3 months, not too bad!


Ozzy is such a wonderful little angel though, every time I look at him I feel blessed.  He is so happy and chatting and so full of light.  Wonderful addition to my awesome family!


Anyway, speaking of, he is hungry and I think I will take him to bed now.  In bed before 9???  Oh well I'm tired enough to make that work!  I had a long day of yoga teacher training and then a 5 km run today!  Let's hope for the third night in a row of only up to feed once!!!

More mother guilt

It never feels like enough.  That's mother's guilt.  I'm feeling a little down.  I feel like I don't have enough patience with Eli, I don't spend enough time with him.  But I was up for hours with a coughing Ozzy last night.  So I spent time researching coughing and when to worry, and worrying about Ozzy, comforting Ozzy today.  Oh and then I have to plan my yoga classes for tomorrow and friday.  And every time I think about something fun to do with my kids yoga I think why doesn't Eli get that type of attention from his mommy.  Eli would like that game, why haven't I done it with Eli.  I just feel poopy.  That's the best word to describe it.  I know "mama told me there'd be days like this, there'd be days like this mama said" but I still feel down and guilty.  I always want to do more, be more.  Stress is getting me down too.  Bed now, hopefully tomorrow brings less guilt and brighter perspective.